I'm a mess at finding love. I'm a gay man, finding a couple is really difficult... I used to have a crush on my best friend, and I feel a bit delusional saying this, since he has always aknowledged that he is straight, but i could tell he also kinda did, he started to treat me like he used to treat his ex girlfriend, but things didn't go well, I honestly don't know why, I never knew, he has a wonderful yet messy mind, he started to ignore me and it hurt, I got awfully depressed, but guess what, he apologized like 3 months ago. We fortunately did talked it out and now we are good friends again, I'm not sure if my love for him has dissapeared tho, since we are on high school now we met new people, and im started to get interested on them, but... I can't talk to them. I'm very social and talk to someone the moment I look at them, so I'm thinking there's something still inside of me, it's an insecurity of mine that i hate, I'm not sure if I should take a step forward on other people...