Rant #22299

i did all the things to make myself feel better i don’t feel better i know it won’t last but it’s really sticking right now even the little spurts where i feel okay fade into emptiness once i stop moving i’ve felt like this many times before it’s never forever but wowwwwwww ouuucchh i want it to end i think wanting it to end this bad means maybe i’m closer to feeling like myself again