I feel so alone all the time. I mean I did, and then I moved, and then it got worse. I've always kind of felt outside the box. In the corner and quiet. Whatever words to use. Just kind of there. I fill a space that I'm needed for and then that's kind of it. And maybe it's cruel - but surrounded by a group of people I called friends, I got nothing from it. I still felt so lonely. I played the game, smiled and waved, paid for gas and food for people who didn't have the cash. Now I don't have anyone. I've moved across the country and broke up with my partner, and now I have like one vague friendship online that I don't talk to outside of gaming and the person that I met on omegle, and there's other people I talk to that I'm unsure how to classify. I'm not sure if any of it counts as friendship. I'm terrified that I'm not meant for something like that. I can do anything, withstand it, but with nobody I can smile at when I see them? If I have to suffer, why do I have to do it alone?