I can't take it anymore i just want the courage to just you know but i can't. I don't have a future, i'm missing someone I haven't seen in years because shes just has a strong grasp on my heart, i can't talk to any of my friends cause i don't what to say and even then i don't want them to comfort me cause it will disgust me and i don't even know why. My brain is just firing on all cylinders and if i can't find something their goes having a good day and its bothers for so long i just want my best friend back i miss her so much even though i shouldn't. i cant talk to anyone i want my friends to leave me and my family to disown me just to make ending it so much easier. Why was i just born wrong i was so terrible back then i just keep getting worse im sorry to everyone im really sorry just please find someone better then me