An odd part of me wishes everyone would leave me so that i can have an easier time killing myself But at the same time i love my friends, my family, my cat Sometimes i believe that im not gonna live past graduation or maybe to my 21st birthday But the only reason im alive is because my friends wouldn’t be able to visit my grave if i did die. I swore to myself if i died, I’d be the last one in the friend group to do so.