i need to hug someone so badly, i need to cry on someones shoulder so fucking bad its not funny. but no, here i am, crying on a pillow, the same one i hug to sleep and pretend it's a person. hahahaha, fuck my life. even my online friends are drifting away, my real ones are shit, my teachers think im rebellious or burning out, and i am. im burning out. im tired. i need someone. but i have no one. because im the clown, only supposed to be funny and lighthearted, right? no one connects with me, no one thinks of me, everyone forgets me when im out of the room, hell, even when im in the room. god i wish i could relive the day someone got me a soda just because i seemed to be a decent person. god i wish i could relive the day my teacher gave me a hug, god i wish i could just be welcome one more time in someones arms.