I wish I could be better at life. I've been messing everything up and I don't impress my parents. My siblings make it worse getting me in trouble even though I didnt do anything to them. I hate being threatened by stuff, like being hit, being kicked out, or being put for adoption. I've vented to many friends but they don't seem to care even. I have no one to talk to. My bestest of friends told me to end it. I cant speak up for myself or ill be smacked or hit. I was told God would make my life better if I had faith in him. I didnt receive it, my life keeps getting worse. I hate my step-dad. He thinks just because he's a man means that he'll do whatever he wants and he'll be praised like a God. He sa'd me secretly, ive never told anyone about it yet. I'm sacred.