To shore, I'm sick, both physically and emotionally. You were my comfort whenever it got worse and you still are but I don't want to run to you anymore. I'm sure you don't know this(because you're not real) , I named you after my favourite thing. Shore? I don't think i could call out to you anymore because it makes me lonely. Idk why I dreamt of you that day after getting a weird intuition. Idk anything and saying ts feels like a lie. I'm sure the dream was a one time thing and ik it means nth unlike my other precognitive dreams. I keep searching for you everywhere and it's tiring. I don't want to keep doing what I'm doing. I don't want to be in love w a ghost of my imagination. Calling you that def hurts, cz i still attach meanings to what we had in the dream. I don't think i could love anyone else and I'm not ready to cz i don't see the point. I'm disappointed that it took me 9 months to realise my feelings for you. Shore, I wish I could keep calling you that. I feel numb shore.