I can’t stop crying ever in school at home as long as I’m not distracted I’m crying I won’t die so bad but sometimes it feels too permanent other times it feels so easy.I’ve tried but the knife was too blunt I stil have ways and I wonder why u don’t try it I tried od but didn’t use the right pills.I’m so depressed sometimes I think I’m only 14 why me and I see other people in my school liek the popular girls who bully me have sh scars or at least they look liek it and it makes me wonder would my sadness turn into me into that kind of person?im jealous of everyone for having it so easy sometimes I’m idk what their life is but at least your parents can pay rent at least u can go outside with wanting to hide your ugly face at least u have a social life at least your not an outcast I mean some people my age r so sheltered they don’t realise others have emotions.I wona kms I feel nothing.