I miss her too bad. We separated like half a year ago, knew each other for 2-3 years and it was kind of an odd friendship. We said we were friends but liked to kiss infront of others and alone, we both wanted people to think we were dating but then would brush the topic off once someone said it to our faces. We both did intimate things, and got jealous over one another but never ever would say to one another “I love you” unless it had a laugh at the end. Now she’s out of my life bc I got jealous. She told me she was lesbian but then starting doing everything we did but to a guy, and I just..hated it! I hated the guy, I hated how she would just leave me like that! So I ended whatever we had. But now, I can’t help but cry. How come I hated her so much but now I’m like a lost puppy without her, crying and looking at all the places we would go to, the foods we ate, the movies we watched - crying because I want that with her, and only her bc she was perfect for me! The only one..