i am so stupid i just cant believe how dismissive i have become of my studies because of my procrastination letting my high grades silp out through my fingers because i have grown lazy i refuse to acknowledge how gross and lazy i have become because i dont want to realise that its my fault im on reels or youtube or doing literally anything but my schoolwork and i just, im so mad and disappointed in myself >:( im supposed to be smart what happened??? a little bit of stress piled up and i fell behind in work once and i havent been able to catch up since as im just avoiding all my problems and freaking out over them later im so mad im so mad i hate myself for being so fricking irresponsible my procrastination has been ruining me for years and years and yet i never learn i always fall right back into the same false security of avoiding my problems until i just CANT ANYMORE. IT SUCKS. SO BAD. I SUCK SO BAD. i have a test tomorrow that contributes to my final overall mark havent studied :(