My heart is so sad because I don't know what to do anymore. When I was working a solid highly paid job, my recently reunited with me husband was so nice and sweet and kind, and now that I am working hard to make small amounts right now even, waiting on background checks and hiring processes, he just got a new car and is drifting around town in it without me being mean and hateful and ugly toned to me constantly. He is irritable and angry and blows up at the slightest anything. I can call and ask him what he wants me to pick up to cook for dinner tonight and he will shout at me that I need to grow the F up and leave him alone. Or he gets super in my face calling me a R**tard and saying I am a D**a** and that I need to get a freaking job and figure it out myself. It hurts. It hurts that he cheats on me nightly almost and he always carries his phone secretly and never talks to me, never lets me in.He hates the sound of my voice, he shouts and he isn't gentle anymore. I am crumbling inside