Sometimes when I'm sad i think about ending it, thanks to intrusive thoughts and adhd and stuff, i don't like thinking about it and i dont want to worry anyone i love, so i dont really wanna tell them because im worried they might take it hard or blame themselves and i dont want that for them, and some times when im overly angery i say mean things and i dont think before i speak and i feel really bad but then i dont say sorry because im worried the person i was mad at is still mad or something, and sometimes i think about other stuff i really hate and i wish i wouldnt but it wont shut up or go quiet, only in very few situations i suffer from many things and i kinda just wish i could just be a normal person or just a better person but its very hard to do that because if i hear the wrong things i get mad, and its at a point where my loved ones described me as just mad or angry to my face, sorry for the vent, i hope everyone else feels good today, stay safe, <3