Rant #21155

Every single friend of mine just left me and i'm truly feeling lonely and Even if they we're still with me they would hate me. The last act of love i did for them is to make them hate me so bad they won't care if i die either way. I'm truly still thinking about them but also about self harming because it's genuinely gotten so Bad i can barely get up to go to school, brush My teeth, eat, etc so why should i keep living if it's more painful than dying?