what wrong with me I was bed-rotting my entire vacation and only went out once a week when my mum forced me.I started sh even more and tried to kms but I couldn’t, I didn’t know how to, now school started I want to get better grades bc I have to pick my gcse, it’s getting serious my parents can’t even pay for uni so I have to study hard but I can’t it’s too much the day is too short for studying and cleaning and taking care of my lil brother half the time I js try to get out of bed and I end up staying up every night bc the day is too short and I never have time. For myself I don’t wonna die but sometimes when I remember why I really wanted to die it’s all comes back too me the guilt and everything I’ve started to forget things mby it was always like this.I feel nothing and empty I like it but I hate it.I relapsed and sh so bad this times I only did 2 cuts but they were so deep and wouldn’t stop bleeding so I got scared and now it makes me feel sick.also had 4 panic attacks.ima kms.