“What is this feeling?” -the question I asked myself at 8. Hi, I’m Grace. I have a uncure able sickness, (NF1 + a tracheostomy) I have the tracheostomy Since age 4, and the NF1 since I was born. (There are many types of NF- I have type one so it’s not cancerous) for all my life I’ve gotten looks, I always cover up before going out and I hate it. At age 8 I started feeling weird..I didn’t know depression was starting. Few years later at 13 I started c*ting myself. I finally got caught at 14 and I now I’m clean. I’ve never been to school. I’ve never fallen in love at a young stupid age. I’ve never eaten alone. I’ve never not been to the hospital once a year. I can’t go swimming. I’ve never not had a nurse with me 24/7. If you think your life sucks (- not relating to major issues-) Think again, this is my life.