I started school yesterday again, my first day was a bittersweet mix of horrible and good. Starting off, me as a person, I struggle SO HARD to find peace with the way I look. I have chubby cheeks which I absolutely HATE about myself. And it doesn't help that whenever I walk past some people, wether they do it unintentionally or not, they suck in their cheeks. And its just a harsh reminder that whatever I do it's something I won't be able to forget. People say "change it if you don't like it" But I've been TRYING! I'm not even big! It's just how my body fat was stored and I have no idea why all of it decided to go to my face! Why couldn't it go into my skinny legs for one!? I got put into a different tutor with my friends in it. We had a seating plan and only two friends were next to me. THEY DIDN'T EVEN SPEAK TO ME! I honestly think most of my friends are fake, they never check up on you when they are deep in a conversation, they act like your just a prop. I can't wait to leave.