Im trying really hard to not talk about him or bring him up to anyone, because Im usually a blabbermouth and will try to slip people into conversations casually even when I tell myself I wont say anything. He basically has no idea I exist (forgot we went to school together for a year a few years ago but we were in different grades) and now he’s where I am and we’ll be interacting more in my volunteering. I havent told anyone about him so far and Im trying to hold that in as long as possible and keep something private to myself. I dont want to embarrass myself by mentioning him to anyone and have him continue to not notice my existence. So Im ranting about it here
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