Rant #20909

I want to scream at the world. I’m looking for connection, and I distract myself with everything possible, and I end up feeling completely alone in the most loneliest way possible. And at the end of the day, I know it was me. It was all my fault. And I can’t tell anyone about it. How much I hate this. Hate myself for keeping me trapped in this state. But, it’s the way I think, isn’t it? I don’t know. I just want to be someone different, able to change my life.