I feel like I have no one for myself. I have friends but I have this overwhelming feeling that they hate me and want me to leave them alone but are too kind or nervous to tell me. Ik that it's most likely not the issue and I'm too scared to ask bc I don't want to lose them bc they seem to be my only true friends that I have for a while. But I don't even know if they are true. They all have someone to go to if something happens and I know I'm never gonna be their first option. I don't even think I'm anyone's first options. Not even my family. I never felt so alone yet so surrounded by people i love. I just think they don't love or even like me. I want to be close to them but I don't want to annoy them. I feel utterly inferior to them even though I know they would not want that.