I have no clue what I’m doing. I feel like I have no skills and like I am a comet barreling towards destruction. I am a teacher but I hate it and want to leave but I can’t leave yet because I have a trip planned and I need the spring break offered through being a teacher but I have no passion or energy or motivation left for my students and that is so awful. I want to leave but I have nothing to go towards. I just want this all over. I’m so tired and I know everyone in my life is tired of hearing me complain. It just feels so pent up but even when I talk about it, it doesn’t feel better. I started going back to church and that is helpful to have the reassurance that even if I hate myself my God loves me. I just need guidance. Or for a truck to hit me on my way to work. Either will be perfect for me.