I was clean from self harm for maybe I think 2 years, and I’ve only cut maybe ones or twice in 4 years after going through a period of time where I cut almost every day for months. I cut again today, the first time ever with a knife too. I’ve only ever used a razor before, and it felt good. I don’t understand, my life is fine, I cut myself in mania and then the almost post-cut clarity hits and then I cut cause I feel so awful. I don’t get it, I wish I could stop. It just hurts and hurts and hurts so much sometimes.
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