I can’t tell if I’m too rude to my sister. I find her disgusting. Everytime I see her I have a disgust so bad I just have to look away or I get upset, and if she touches me or steals my clothes then returns them I have to wash them 4 times then shower 3 times, and scrub myself so hard I start to bleed. I don’t really know why I am so deeply grossed out by her, but she also does say she’s edgy by acting like a baby with a pacifier and also watching gore and telling me about organs and all that which makes me puke just by thinking of blood! Today I poked her shoulder since we were outside with her friends and she decided to punch me to the ground so she could look cool. It made me upset and so I said “This is why I can never even look at you.” I do try to hide my disgust but recently I haven’t been able to since she’s been stealing my shorts, etc, and I just throw them away because I fear so much about her gross sweat and yuck! Idk if she has noticed, but I wonder if I was too mean :(