Things that happened to me in the past couldn't hurt me anymore. I know that as a fact, but sometimes i wonder if those things are avoidable if only my parents know what happened to me at school. Maybe transferring me to other schools, remind me always to learn how to drive, so that I could find new friends outside of school or at least be around more. I think i wouldn't need to spend few years of high school battling prolonged isolation/even got diagnosed with something. I was bullied and it created this gap in my life that I've been trying to catch up on. But that doesn't mean I've developed a healthy coping mechanism atm nor there's "silver lining" in everything. My bullies didn't hurt me physically, but boy, do they leave a nasty imprint on how i think about myself, my trust to other people, even my religion. Is it bad that i can't meet them? I froze everytime i saw them. The smell of the psychiatric hospital is prevalent when i see them.