Like yeah I get that I need to chill out but idk if I'm doing this just to vent and blow off stress and yeah it's not good to say I'm going to kms but it's better then actually doing it right. But I'm worried that this is my cry for help and I'm not getting help for it instead just criticized / put down for having such big feels and not knowing what to do with them or how to handle them like a normal person anymore. Like yeah I wanna kms sometimes but I havent been actively suicidal in a hot min but sometimes it does creep up and usually I'm doing a good job with taking care of myself and being nicer to myself during this time but like what if it gets bad and they are all like lol they are joking and i actually kms or something like
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