Rant #20174

I dont know why but for some reason a charecter means more to me then some of my family and friends if not all of them. Im planing my life around him and not me and he isnt even real. He helped me when i was at my lowest and he isnt even real... I pray before i go to bed that ill dream about him im so helpless... He means so much to me. Is that a bad thing? I want to hug him so bad. He isnt real he isnt real whats wrong with me