Im writing this here, because im too scared to tell this to anyone. I am a paraphile. Ever since I was in elementary school, I have been attracted to pedophiles. In 5th and 6th grade, I would look up sex offenders in my area, thinking about what would happen if I went there. Furthermore, I have an incest fetish. Not for my actual family, im not attracted to any of them. Just the idea of that dynamic. Ive also had that fetish since I was very young. Ive never been molested or anything that I can think of that would have brought this on. And I don't know what to do about it. It feels so shameful. I've hurt myself over the guilt I feel after im done getting off. I feel ashamed looking at my family, I feel ashamed looking in the mirror, I feel ashamed when talking to my friends. I'm not a legal adult yet. I don't know what I'll do once I reach that age. Just be a regular pedophile I guess. If I dont hang myself first. Thank you for reading. Stay safe.