im a horrible person, intrinsically, i have exams soon and i have no clue how im going to be able to lock in and focus on them right after dealing w a break up that was my fault (i unintentionally did things that hurt them). I dont want to get back w them but i want to try and become a better person, and move on from them, but i dont know how, i js cant stop thinking of them and how it was, ik it wasnt perfect and ive watched vids convincing myself that itll be better but i js cant see it being like that. I dont know what to think idk what to do idk anything i js feel a hole in my brain and chest that wont fade. I hope i feel better and ill try my hardest to do so, im gonna change for the better, i must focus on the good things in my life and js try to improve myself.