so , I am not feeling really well I do not know what is wrong with me but i cant trust anyone and I cant even talk to anyone . My life is like a mes and I have loads of things juggling in my mind. I cant trust my partner eniugh so that I can live on with him on my own, and even when i am writing this my mind is speaking . I do not even know where it will lead me , but I never thought i would be stuck here somewhere.I thought I would be the best person in my life. But people around me are not nice. I know in the beginning everyone hates you, but at the end everything will be fine. I do not want to be selfish, but the world is asking me to be. I am at the point where people don't think about how this will make someone feel; they care about themselves, and I am trying my best to think about not hurting anyone's feelings. I prefer to stay and deal with my feelings alone rather than let the world know how I feel.