I just hate myself there’s nothing good in me, and I destroy am on this stupid phone all the time destroying my health and body wasting time while I could be doing so much not even that i don’t have close friends I can’t just tell them this we’re not like that I can’t just go from have normal okay conversation to crying breaking down because I know am nothing to everyone in my life because I waste my chances for anything deeper and hide away online and in my room that and most of the time I can’t articulate what I mean and feel into words and I just think my demeanor makes the people around me uncomfortable I don’t want to be like this but its to late to change myself because the things holding me back are hard learnt in I just feel like there’s nothing keeping me to go forward in anything