so pretty much since the middle of eigth grade up until current im now a freshman ive been dealing wih overthinking every time im with a friend its like im not in my body but rather watch everything i say to them and do and i feel like i judge myself so much and have this like made up version of who i have to be like for some reason i feel like whenver i meet someone new i have to be funny because with my family they all call me funny and it seems to be a strength of mine but whenim with friends at school its like that goes away and i get awkward and i dont know what to say so i either say nothing or just like talk about something random and then they dont respond or i feel dumb and its just so exhaushting theres this one girl sofia in my poms team friend group who i feel like every time i respond to her she either doesnt respond or seems annoyed but shell ask me something playful like she likes me so i dont even know where i stand i just want to be me again and stop overthinking