Why is it so hard to have one person in my life who's considerate of me or cares about me? I already understand no one owes me anything but even my own partner cant have any consideration for me even knowing what i struggle with. i can't stand to leave them because i genuinely have no one else in my life despite my life falling apart has to do with them but i try so hard to be understanding for them and stay with them hoping better but maybe im stupid. i love being by myself but at times i wished there were people who actually cared for me emotionally and genuinely tried to understand. why is it that my own partner and family can't?? i'm so tired of trying to be so optimistic and trying to do better when nothing ever changes no matter all my efforts