I have never felt so beyond stupid in my life. I feel so unworthy and so incapable. I failed my first year of college last year. The ENTIRE DAMN THING. Literally every class. And I still found it in me to keep going. To try again. But now I'm putting in what I can and I just realize just how incompetent I am. What kind of stupid fuckass idiot works for three hours to only complete a third of a lab? It's not even anything crazy either. It's exel. MICROSOFT EXEL. It's only the second week of class. No, MONDAY of the second week of class. I feel like I don't deserve to be here. I feel like such an idiot. And I feel like an even bigger idiot for crying about it like a little bitch. I just want to go home and see my family. And maybe stop feeling like I can't do anything. I won't be able to survive this modern world without this degree. Im already giving up my time and hobbies and everything for this. Im committed. I put in the work. I just don't know why I still can't get anything right.