It just sucks when you go to all them doctors and getting all these tests for 17 years now and they don't know anything at all. I have bad blackouts everyday since 2008. I take off running full speed until I run into something that knocks me out, I have no memory of it ever. Like what are you suppose to do when there is nobody to help? They won't let me work now and I have lost everything… I just feel the only option is to just give up. Nobody would even notice I'm gone anyways if I wasn't in this world anymore... I haven't even talk to a person this year. Friends are fake, soon as I run out of money and everything else, every friend I thought I had disappeared with the quickness. I just don't have no clue what to do? Like there is no point in me even being in this world anymore. You can't survive without working and having money. I don't have a friend or any family. Everything else I had I lost now.