im actually abt to k m s i hate my life im failing every fucking thing on earth i hate this imma boutta fail everything and all i wanna do is crawl into a cave and d i e and im fucking f a t and i have n o friends like none as in i fucking have friends but i stand there and watch them and literally stand off to the side i go to the bathroom to c u t myself and c r y everyday at school my ma keeps saying that i should be more like the one friend i text whos abt to k t s and is 'so much better than me' and that theyre so disciplined and they came 1st allround at the comp yesterday and im so happy for them and i came 2nd and my ma is like omg 'she' did so much better and ur so bad and be more like 'her' but i dont wanna be like them i wanna be me and all my ma sees is laziness and attitude and im only a l i v e cus arie is but they dk that and they have a best friend and girlfriend and im js there.. i ony see them 6 hrs a wk.. so they dont c a r e abt me..fuck-f.g