There's this girl I've liked for a while, and honestly, I don't even know how to explain how much I care about her without sounding ridiculous. She's straight, and I've already told her that I like her. She was actually really kind about it, which somehow makes it harder because I can't even be upset with her or blame her for anything. I know she can't control who she's attracted to, and I don't expect her to suddenly feel the same way. I just wish she did. I still have feelings for her, though. I've been trying to just be her friend and act normal, but it's so much harder than I thought it would be. I'll notice little things about her, overthink conversations, wonder whether she actually likes having me around, and then convince myself that I'm probably being annoying or making things awkward without even realizing it. I wish I could just be different . Like if I looked more like the kind of person she likes, it would have been different.