I have been thinking about an Undertale soul quiz I taken a few days ago. It has stuck with me for a while because the largest soul I gotten was Perseverance, the ability to bend and adapt but not break. It made a lot of sense but I will be very honest I don't know how to feel about it. I like it but have I really persevered? I've been spending so long wanting to die and I still...still do. I relapsed into SH on a university trip that should've been a time where I enjoyed myself and yet I find myself in such a horrible state. Is this perseverance? Feeling like I'm constantly on a time limit, my life slowly falling between my fingers like sand, is this truly what perseverance looks like? This doesn't feel like it at all, no it feels like the opposite. Everytime I attempted I never followed through. Yet I'm terrified of the day I'd give in. Is this perseverance? Is this truly what it is or am I just a lost cause. I have no clue anymore. I'm so tired