I'm ready to commit suicide. I thought it over and decided it's time. Nothing I say or do will ever change my circumstances. Everyone I let close betrays me, even when I give them the general trust that society expects to be generally given. There is no such thing as the good will of others as people only care about themselves and what their wants and needs are. When you aren't of any use you are thrown away. When you go to others with the truth, you are ostatrized, blamed, and called a liar. Fuck the world.