i fucking hate how my parents restrict me for showing my emotions and being myself, like yeah I do stuff that i shouldnt do but for fuck sake it was their fault why that happened and they start blabbering about their not pressuring me to study?! like I get pressured every single day by the thought they might not talk to me ever again because I failed one of my grades, like I am seriously trying my best LIKE TRYING TRYING all I CAN DO IS THINK ABOUT "how can I be better in this subject" "how can i study properly" thats all I can think about and at this point my friends are whats keeping me alive everytime I go to school all i can think about is how excited I am to see them and honestly I cant live without god i mean i cant say its his fault but his the one thats guiding my path not me hahahaha i hate my life