like ig idw kms but i think ill kms beofre i reach the sats its not that im completley suicidal i jsut dont rlly see any reason to keep going yk? ivereached the point of im only exisitng cause im waiting to die i jsut kinda eh whatever and mask eeveryhting but i keep thkning what if im not and im overhtknign or am i overthiknkgin that idea too?