I hate that I have so many bad memories of a toxic place I was at. Try to explain it to fam they don't get it. They were never in such an awful place like I was. What's probably one of the worst things and I say one, there's a bazillion, 2 people from there passed away and all I have is bad memories of them hardly anything good to say about them. Sure they had value as a human being, but they also did me dirty and were shitty to me. Thats just scratching the surface. I try to talk about it with fam it goes in ear out the other or its like I'm talking to a wall. I should have never ever been at that place to begin with. Only because my late ex uncle encouraged me to. Had no idea the toxicity of it was nearly every person was hostile mean sarcastic using manipulative childish and alot were super lazy. The list goes on. It was a hellhole. So glad I'm not there now but it's just idk.