I want to die but I don't want to kill myself I'm always about to but I don't Because killing myself seems too cruel It seems as if I hated myself more than the world did But maybe I did Maybe all it was was my head My brain Maybe I was just fighting demons everyday But 'was' isn't the right word The right word is 'is' Or 'am' Because I would be a liar if I said I was fine If I just told you I would be fine 1 more time 1 singular time Maybe it would've been easier to keep the lie Maybe you would've never known But then I wouldn't have known about you And then I would be dead And maybe you would too Because how do I tell you that I'm alive because I feel guilty Because I told myself that you were worse And so I couldn't until you did But I know I care more about you than you do me Because you have told me you have a best friend And a girlfriend And I'm just a friend And I don't mean I want to be more than a friend I want to be a close friend... I want to be wanted... -f.g