I wish I could admit but he'd never care. I wish I could tell you how much I've always cared about you since we were kids and I've always looked after you to make sure nothing happens but my own stupidity caused me to trust you ONE time and you get yourself groomed all because I didn't look after you. I wish I could tell you and we could be happy again. I wish you could see that I'm just paranoid and you lied to me so much. I wish you wouldn't tell your boyfriend that I'm assuming the worst out of you. I care so much it hurts. It hurts so much I'm losing my memory and I know it's selfish, but I hope I forget you. Nothing would change on your side anyway. I care so much that it harms me and the only way to stop is by forgetting you. You'll never give me a chance. So, I need to end this and forget you already. I wish we could've still been "siblings" to each other but now we'll just be classmates. I'm so sorry I wish I could've gone back and been there for you. None of this would happen.