For so long I've been waiting for someone to understand me. It's like no matter how many times I remain stuck in that hole I could put out my hand waiting for someone to reach back out but no one ever does. It's like I have to watch everyone get what they want while I just sit here patiently waiting for my turn. Maybe I deserve everything that happens and happened to me. The one thing that I've prayed for the longest was to not be alone anymore and the thought of it is just consuming. I've tried therapy (that never worked out lol) I've tried talking to PEOPLE they've heard my story but never took it to consideration to come and check up on me. I have no family nor friends I'm just alone and all I ever wanted was to feel loved (is it really that hard to ask for??). (Maybe I'm unapproachable idk) I really am a looser man the only person i talk to Is my mom and she doesn't even seem like she wants to be bothered.