I shouldn’t have been weak. I shouldn’t have let you weasel your way back into my life. When I blocked you the first time I should have left it at that. I should have never told you about my trauma for you to weapons against me when I finally said no to you. There must have been truth to stone’s words so while you were saying you were mentally unwell you were actually spending time with other people and if you didn’t like me why did you waste my time for 4 and a half months. You called me “good boy” and I must have been a dog to you. I was your dog on many ways. I can’t help but despise you R. You made me hate you. And why, why were you forcing yourself onto me every few days when you claimed to have wanted space with empty I love yous and pictures. I should have never trusted women. My trauma and system were telling me right, now they are all format because I fell in love with the person they were protecting me from.