I'm genuinely feeling so broken lately like I totally changed as a person and that everyone is distancing themselves from me so when I stop trying to go to them I'd just stop being something to them and I feel I'm only defined as how I present myself and how positive I can be towards other people and I feel so guilty when I try to talk about my issues because I bottle them up a lot so I end up just spitting out everything at once and I'm scared of overwhelming people and I dont have any trusted person to talk to in real life and I feel like I'm just losing my sense of self and everything that goes with it. And everytime it comes back to the same person that caused me that and that managed to make my trust issues reach a level I think is in a point of no turning back and I wish I had distanced myself from them before they managed to hurt me this bad but there i am suffering the consequences of their actions when they're probably managing to sleep well without questions about anything.