if i could turn back time, i will not choose him. I do love him but i don't want to start again for what we have. We could have been a family but he said his not ready, but he like kids. I would not let my kids be like me, no family. I'd rather stop it than let them suffer. In today's world, everything is so hard and having no family makes it even harder. I wish to be love but why does it cost to much for me? idk im tired and why is it so hard. Life sucks!