I use to hate my dad so much. He drank all the time and would throw stuff at me and my little sister. I had hated him so much, I had several escape plans, and every night I cried about how much I hated my life. I’m a minor, I can not control what I can do. Trapped with a threat in my own home, I really hated it all. I wanted him gone, and each time I saw him I felt an unbearable disgust, anger and sadness. It’s only been a year since him being abusive, and yeah I still am upset on how he treated me, but he doesn’t throw stuff or drink anymore. He can still be very rude, but I think it’s better now, but that’s left me with confusion. I use to want to escape him so bad, I would try hanging myself even at 7 years old because I felt life was so FRUSTRATING. I really hate those memories, and I know when he treats me this, well it’s just temporary since he use to compliment me just to throw me around. But honestly, I wanna have hope in him, I want to think this can be my dad still.