I am a 15 year old Sophomore in high school, and today when walking home with my sister who is a junior We got yelled at by a young adult from a car window, he said " you f*cking n*gger" and my heart was aching all day. At school people I hangout with always make racial jokes towards me and I now I have a feeling I am ashamed of being this race and I do to deserve it, I hate people that are racist, people you jokes about racism and people who says the N word when there skin isn't the same as mine, and use their family or ethnicity as an excuse, I want to grow up and build a community about anti racism, but be a leading example and having each others back but right now I want to get a better mindset for situations like these and learn to be my own person, learn to say NO, and never let anyone ever control my life ESPECIALLY if they are not my blood related, I have dealt with racism all my life but recently I have opened my eyes and see how normalized it is and I hate it