Rant #18007

i would like to experience teenage love at least once. going on a date, pecks on the cheek, knowing smiles in the hallway, making each other cute things, having a spotify blend with him, hearing "i love you", being picked up and twirled around, forehead kissed, love where both the people love each other, not the kind i've been stuck in since 2022. i wonder if i'm incapable of being loved, am i unlovable? i mean my own mother couldn't love me, so why would a boy do it?